And we admitted that we aren't that into clubs now.
Firstly, if I step into a club I feel invisible because I'm attached which means everybody just ignores my very very amazing charms. HAHAHA
Secondly, (an irony to the first) I don't even know if I'm still attractive because I actually feel very unattractive these days. Not that I no longer think I look hot, pretty and cute (HAHAHAHA. kidding), but just invisible!
Maybe this is what being together with someone makes me feel like, I feel like I could dress so prettily but no guys would look at me and think that I'm pretty ):
that's because...I'm together with Ben.
Maybe someday I should go test water. HEH HEH. But of course, with Ben's permission.
If he ever would allow me.
Or he could just tell me that I'm pretty and I wouldn't need to test water.
But could I trust him o.0
HAHAHAH
Maybe he scared that I might PMS him so he just says I'm pretty.
(Actually, sometimes he would compliment me. HEH HEH. Which makes me very happy that when it gets into my head, I'd disregard all other pretty girls temporarily.)
But actually, he better think that I'm pretty!!! >:(
HAHAHAHAHA
Else he'll get it from me!
But you know, I want others to think I'm pretty or attractive.
HAHAHAH
So I'm tempted to test waters. HEH HEH.
